Thursday, August 29, 2013

Blech!

Almost a week since I've posted!
Yikes!
I'm slacking!
But NOT slacking in my exercise!
Okay, except for last night.
I didn't end up doing the Ab Ripper X workout after I finished my Shoulders & Arms exercise yesterday and I'll tell you why!
 
Yesterday was a busy day.
Even though I never left my house, I felt like I was going from one thing to the next, with a long visiting teaching appointment, phone calls, Relief Society stuff, and taking care of Harvey.
 
I didn't end up getting my workout in early in the day, so after the boys got home from school I did my workout.  I was finishing up exercising when Sean came home from work with a pizza.  He had called while I was working out and asked if he needed to pick anything up from the store.  I told him I didn't have anything planned out for dinner yet, it was really hot out (like 98 degrees), and that I didn't feel like cooking.  He asked if I wanted him to pick up a pizza from a new place that a friend suggested.  I debated back and forth about...I've been doing SOOOOOO good with my eating, and making our own meals.  I was really hesitant about getting a pizza.  It's one of my weaknesses.  I LOVE pizza!  So, I said yes, and told myself I would just eat one piece and have a salad and fruit to fill me up.
 
So, Sean came home right after I finished the Shoulders & Arms DVD, and we had to eat right away because we were in a time crunch to get him back out the door for Young Men's.  We couldn't even wait the 15 minutes to do Ab Ripper.  It only takes 15 minutes!  How awesome is that!
 
Anyways, we ate dinner. 
I had about 3 little square pieces of pizza about the equivalent to one slice.  One breadstick, salad, and the rest of my green smoothie that I couldn't finish from lunch.
 It tasted REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY good!
But...this is how I felt afterword!
 
 
Like I ate a whole plate of butter!
YUCK!
I felt so gross!
My stomach hurt really bad.
There was no way that I was doing Ab Ripper last night after I ate!
I think it was the breadstick that did me in. 
It was stuffed with mozzarella and coated with butter and garlic.
I felt like I busted my gut.
 
I went to bed last night with a stomach ache and woke up like this...
 
 
Seriously, I hate it when I wake up with garlic breath!
But even worse, I woke up with serious heartburn and felt like I still had greasy butter around my mouth!  Nasty!  I've been burping all morning!
 
 
So, lesson learned!
I think because I've been eating so well, I was able to notice the drastic feeling between eating healthy and unhealthy food.
 
Although pizza is one of my favorite foods, it's definitely going to be awhile before I eat it again!  I think I may need to find a good recipe for homemade pizza crust and use fresh healthy ingredients for our toppings.
 
I've had a really hard time getting motivated this morning to go exercise as well.
It's already 11am!
But this is my motivation now!
 
 
I really like this quote.
I'm never going to reach my goals of getting healthy and loosing some weight if I only workout on the days that I feel good and feel like it.  So, I getting off the computer and going to go do my Yoga!
I've lost 5 lbs. already just from starting last week, and I can tell I'm becoming stronger.  I can do a lot more of the exercises, I don't get winded as fast, and I don't hurt as much after a work out.  I want to keep going!
 
So.....see ya!


Friday, August 23, 2013

Killer Wall Squats

Wall Squats...
you busted my butt today.
Or maybe that would be my thighs instead!
They hurt, and made my legs quiver.
It was a good workout though for Chest & Legs.
I like that I was able to take breaks working out my legs with alternating back and forth between weights with the bands.  It was perfect.  Right when I felt like I couldn't do anymore squats or lunges it was time to switch.
Nice!!!
 
On the good side though, I made improvements on Ab Ripper X today!  I noticed I could do a few more of the movements better and could hold out doing the exercises longer.
 
 
My healthy eating is being recognized by all the boys in the house.  For good and for bad! Dinner last night was pork chops, asparagus, and acorn squash.  I cooked the acorn squash most of the way through, cut it in half, scooped out the seeds, put a dab of butter, a little brown sugar and walnuts in each hollowed out half, then finished cooking it.
 
Ian's rating of my dinner last night: 2nd WORST dinner ever!
HA!
This coming from the kid who ate ham and brussel sprouts three nights before.  Also, he raved about the hamburger from dinner the previous night. Geesh!  I guess you can't win them all!
Neither Ian, nor Noah finished their dinner last night.  Sean and I loved it though, and Harvey ate the acorn squash! YAY!
 
Speaking of Harvey....
 
He took over my green smoothie this morning.
I was sitting on the couch with my feet up on the ottoman, computer in my lap, green smoothie in one hand.  Harvey came over plopped himself right down on my stomach, grabbed my hand with the smoothie and pulled it towards his mouth for a drink.
It was adorable!
And then he stole the rest of it.
He was pretty proud of himself!
Drinking from a cup like a big boy.
He loved it, and had the cutest green mustache afterword!
Isn't he the cutest thing in whole world!
Love this boy!
 
He was helping me with Ab Ripper X today too.
This move is much more rewarding when you have a sweet toddler sitting on your stomach giving you kisses each time you climb up your leg!
 
It's the little things.
I'm glad my kids are seeing and noticing healthier eating, and exercising.
I'm hoping they will always want to make it apart of their lives too as they continue to grow up!
 
 
 
 


Thursday, August 22, 2013

Tumbling Fool

Yes!  I worked out yesterday, I was just a slacker and didn't get to post on here!
Although, I wasn't as sore after yesterdays workout with the weights as I was on Monday.
 
Today it was...
 
Yoga X!
 
 
Yoga X...
I Love you.  I really do.
You are exactly what my tired, achy, worn out body needed today.
You were relaxing, yet tough.
You worked my muscles in a different way.
I love your bending, stretching, reaching, and breathing.
 
There were times I was completely challenged.
Crane move=No way in my book.
Maybe I can work up to it???
Also, imagine an almost 2 year old going under your legs when you're doing this move.

I was working hard to keep my balance!
What the heck, even when Harvey wasn't running under my legs or around me, I was having a hard time balancing on some moves.
A recommendation...Don't do Yoga X with tennis shoes on, or socks for that matter.
I got almost all the way through it before I remembered this little tip.
It's really hard to do this pose when your sweaty socks keep making your foot slide down your leg!
HA!

So...Yes, YogaX is an hour and a half long! 
YES! 1 1/2 hours you read right.
But, I like it.
 
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I feel I've been doing really well with my eating too.
 I've been eating lots of eggs, fruits, veggies, and just a little dairy.
 
 
This was my breakfast this morning.
 
 
Apple slices dipped in pancake batter.
 
I forgot the cinnamon and nutmeg, but it was still really good.
No butter, syrup or sweet jams needed for these babies.
They are perfectly sweet and filling all on their own.
I know it probably wasn't the lightest breakfast because the apple slices were covered with pancake batter, but I was making pancakes for the boys, (Noah's FAVORITE!), and didn't want to feel cheated out of missing some.  This made them healthier, and I didn't end up eating as many pancakes.
A tip with these, you only need a little bit of batter, and it works best if you cut the apple slices on the thin side, rather than thick.
 
Have you ever tried cottage cheese and smoked salmon?  It was heaven in my mouth today at lunch, and it was more filling than I thought it would be!  I did a 1/2 c. cottage cheese, 1 piece of smoked salmon broken a part, paprika, a dash of lemon pepper, and dill.  It was AMAZING!  I added on just a little broccoli & cauliflower as a side, and finished with a little orange.  YUMMO!
 
Last night for dinner we did tostada salads.
Corn, black beans, tomatoes, peppers, guacamole, lime, cilantro, a little hamburger made with my own seasonings and lime juice, instead of MSG full taco packets.  It was delish!  The boys devoured it and Ian raved about the hamburger!
 
I've been doing so good with not sneaking any sweets or grazing on snacks.
To curb my late night sweet tooth, watermelon has been my friend.
Although, I'm thinking of switching it to something different.  It's making me have to pee in the middle of the night!  HAHA!
 
This stuck out to me today...
 
 
Hard work on a consistent basis, and a desire to succeed!
Gotta keep with it.
Even when I'm sore.
I'll work through it.
 


Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Feelin' the Burn

Holy Cow am I sore today!
 
I woke up early this morning and I was already sore.  Today has been a super busy day.  Ian and Noah both started school again.  The morning was running them both to school, Harvey to a sitter, and me taking Noah to Kindergarten for about an hour for a little orientation.  After that hour, Noah and I picked up Harvey from the sitter, then we all drove home and within the next hour I had a meeting with the Relief Society sisters that are in my presidency at church.  It was a good meeting and I feel we got a bit accomplished and I feel more back on track with my calling.  
 
At the end of our meeting Sean came home from work for lunch, we ate, then he left to go back to work. Less than an hour later we went and picked Ian from school.  When we got home the boys had a little time to relax and play together. 
 
It was going on 5pm I knew I still needed to exercise for the day.  So, I did!  It was a little crazy trying to work out with 3 boys running up and down from the basement, not to mention as I'm trying to do swing kicks over a chair, or the military march and ALMOST kicking one of them in the head!  But it was really cute watching them try to exercise with me. Ian stuck with me for quite awhile and did a really great job.  Um...he kicks my can in squats by the way.  But I did work out...and even better I have still been eating nutritiously and haven't snuck any junk, even though I feel super hungry today and no matter how much I've eaten, I don't feel full or satisfied.  Guess, it's going to be one of those days. 
 
My legs are jello, I'm achy, but I'm feel good that even though it was a crazy busy day, I still took the time to exercise. 
 
YEAH!

Monday, August 19, 2013

It's a start...

See that photo?
 
Yeah, that bag which two of my boys are holding is full of candy that was in our cupboards. I'm not sure how it all got there.  I think it was an accumulation from a lot of different sources.  We bought a tiny portion.  Although, I believe a good share had been given to us little by little over every holiday, school celebration, birthday party, and function that we have attended.
 
 
Our cupboard was overflowing with all this junk food.  And yours truly was the one who seemed to be sneaking to it the most.  It needed to be out of our house.  I was tired of always feeling guilty. I was tired of feeling yucky. Physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually.
I needed a cleanse. A purge if you will.
 
And so I got out that white garbage bag and started throwing it all away. It felt good.  I was proud of myself.  But I didn't throw out ALL of our junk food. I left a little, justifying it by saying that I was leaving a little for the boys to have as an occasional treat.
 
And do you know what happened?  I continued to eat it.  And then we continued to buy more.  Not all candy, but junk food in general.  You know...Oreos, Girl Scout Cookies, Ice Cream, Crackers, Chips, Pringles, Pudding, Chocolate.  You name it. 
 
I'm a glutton for punishment.
 
I've continued to feel icky. 
Not happy with myself or my eating habits. 
So, last night after I finished eating my Crunch Klondike Bar at about 10:30pm, I told myself that was it! NO MORE!!! 
 
And I meant it. I made a goal to wake up and exercise this morning and to eat a healthy breakfast. I set my alarm for 6am last night before going to bed at around 11:30pm.  When 6am rolled around, the alarm went off and I did NOT want to get out of bed.  So I didn't.  I stayed there until about 6:45-7am when my husband got out of bed to get ready for work.  I was awake that whole time.  Why didn't I get out of bed?!!  Because I was lazy and I realized in bed that I was being lazy and then I felt bad about myself again.  I didn't want to feel bad about myself.  So, I got up, put on my workout clothes and went to the basement to exercise.  I started with the P90X, Chest & Back DVD.  It felt good.  I struggled through it.  I'll be honest.  I can't do any pull ups whatsoever, so I use some bands instead.  I also can not do real pushups. I do girly pushups on my knees, and even those are hard.  My arms were shaking and quivering by the end.  But you know what, I liked it.  I feel good about myself that I made it through to the end.  I didn't give up.
 
So, that is how I will continue.  I won't give up. I know it will be hard.  I'm ready to make life changes.  I'm ready to be healthy and happy.  I'm ready to feel good about myself and the decisions I am making.
 
For breakfast I had some eggs, 1/2 piece of wheat toast with a little butter, and a green smoothie, made with a banana, pineapple, mango, and spinach.  It was delicious.  I feel full and satisfied.
 
I still have to do the Ab RipperX DVD as well today.  It's only about a 15 minute workout and should be easy to squeeze in.
 
I plan on posting here everyday.  I know I need away to hold myself accountable.  I'd like to post this on Facebook, to have more than myself to account to, but I'm scared.  Scared of what others might think, scared of what others might say.  Scared what will happen if I don't follow through on what I've planned and then I look like a failure. 
 
But...
Today, I am confronting my fears. 
Today, I'm tired of having feelings of fear. 
Today, Fear will not own me.
 
 
Today, I am moving ahead.
 
Today, I will do it anyway.
 
Because...
 
So, here I go!
Wish me luck!